Need to vent
Been back in the working life for the past 10 months simply tells me the message that I can no longer be the super mum I always thought I was.. My hands are so tied up now, playing the roles of a doting mother, good wife (I hope!) , daughter, manging expectations of my ILs (even managing my IL’s expectations of my hubby.. student cum worker.. I just feel that I am manging a juggling act every minute of the day.. I multi task like I have never done so b4 (guess it is true.. as I hardly ever do housework b4 I got married). I jsut want to do so much for my daughter, play with her, teach ehr new thigns everyday.. hey she is absorbing like a sponge now and why the hell am I sitting in front of the computer day in day out rushing silly assignments? At least for now I know, my hubby is better at playing dog house & rose house with my girl… he is her preferred play partner, while I am the preferred reading companion for her.. but I just cant help but feel that I am missing out on her growing up years that are so so very precious to me… cos I know she is only young ocne and once I miss it, I will NEVER get to experience it again.. silly decision of mine to go back to work so early.. for that miserable pay… if I were to divide it by the hour.. hey I might be better off doing temp work outside.. considering te fact that I virtually go without sleep or at the most 3 to 4 hr of sleep each night.. to be continued.. got to rush assignments again
Laura said,
October 28, 2008 @ 7:09 am
Hey! Take it easy my dear =) Like you, i am also learning to cope with all the chores. Even though i have to attend to my girl and my hubby’s need, I must agree that the stress level i am in is definitely much lesser than yours.
Just remember to breathe when you are stressed, and a 10mins nap would work wonders to your brain. You do need the brain neurons to work really hard when you are working on your assignments =P
Do take care and relax!
kumyi said,
December 1, 2008 @ 12:30 am
Hi Laura,
Thanks for your advice
Am so glad that my holidays are here now, so I get to spend my days with Amanda! How is B3 coping at MC? Has P been better behaved these days? Amanda said that she wants to be in the same class as B3… crossing my fingers that the 2 girls will be in the same class again…